Oh yeah...its' me..."the real me" again for a brief while. Been really long since I got time to scribble down my day's chitter chatter. Been away from home ...day 2 today. I am surprised at how uneasy I am feeling of being so "free" ... there's nothing much to do...had a good day today... :)
Chennai is a good city...it's my first time stay here..though i've come here earlier a couple of times, never actually stayed back here. Through the day's work and lo! totally totally free in the evening. Thought I'll go shop...but did not really like anything :(
Missin hubby dear and my lil doll so very much!
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Yipppie...I am a mom!!!!
After what seemed like an endless wait that kept going on and on and on and that kept making me feel really sick at times and restless at others...I finally have my lil baby in my arms.
She is one of the most beautiful things in my life. Today she is 13 days old. I find myself in a paradoxical situation...a few days ago I just was waiting...waiting desperately for her arrival and today that she is with me...I can't believe that I really really have her!!! Funny thing.
The new phase of life has just begun...and as I always say, I am ...but ...just a Student!
She is one of the most beautiful things in my life. Today she is 13 days old. I find myself in a paradoxical situation...a few days ago I just was waiting...waiting desperately for her arrival and today that she is with me...I can't believe that I really really have her!!! Funny thing.
The new phase of life has just begun...and as I always say, I am ...but ...just a Student!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
the wait seems endless......
I am nearing 37 weeks and the wait seems endless.
I remember all the excitement that was in the beginning....the excitement of slowly counting days until the given due date...feeling tickled every passing day, it nears the due date..but that's when all the patience seems to be over!
It's only a matter of guessing now...today or tomorrow..may be this week or the next... whew..all I can do is just wait wait and wait....(gets me cranky and lousy)
I may sound a little impatient...but then; imagine the feeling of the baby wiggling all the way one's tummy, the maternal instinct has to kick in!
I just start daydreaming of how great it would be to hold the little one! And the feeling the baby in my arms for the very first time....(Gosh..such teary eyed merry event!)
Well...there's nothing much I can do right now other than just wait...and enjoy all the pampering that I get hehehe :)
I remember all the excitement that was in the beginning....the excitement of slowly counting days until the given due date...feeling tickled every passing day, it nears the due date..but that's when all the patience seems to be over!
It's only a matter of guessing now...today or tomorrow..may be this week or the next... whew..all I can do is just wait wait and wait....(gets me cranky and lousy)
I may sound a little impatient...but then; imagine the feeling of the baby wiggling all the way one's tummy, the maternal instinct has to kick in!
I just start daydreaming of how great it would be to hold the little one! And the feeling the baby in my arms for the very first time....(Gosh..such teary eyed merry event!)
Well...there's nothing much I can do right now other than just wait...and enjoy all the pampering that I get hehehe :)
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
of everything...so far
Been almost 2 years since I stepped into this new world...yep the time that started from my wedding to now... and continues. I have seen a lot of things in this new world of mine. Some really great events, some not so good. Overall each passing day has been a learning experience.
The change started from being a full time Professional to a full time homemaker. From a brash personality to a tad simpler person.The way I spoke, behaved and even dressed! everything has changed, far for good.
I do have a few regrets, though not as many. Initially,I did find that the ups and downs of life have been harsh...but now I realize they were only to make me a better person.
I may at times sound like a different person, but it ain't that actually...I just have learnt to cope better and am learning to "respond" and not "react"....learning to be seen as a "Determined individual" and not a "stubborn being"....
The change started from being a full time Professional to a full time homemaker. From a brash personality to a tad simpler person.The way I spoke, behaved and even dressed! everything has changed, far for good.
I do have a few regrets, though not as many. Initially,I did find that the ups and downs of life have been harsh...but now I realize they were only to make me a better person.
I may at times sound like a different person, but it ain't that actually...I just have learnt to cope better and am learning to "respond" and not "react"....learning to be seen as a "Determined individual" and not a "stubborn being"....
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
I want a lil Puppy...!!!!!!!!!!!
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YEAH THAT'S ONE BIG TANTRUM... MOMMY ARE YOU LISTENING...i WANT A CUTE LIL PUPPY!!!
YEAH THAT'S ONE BIG TANTRUM... MOMMY ARE YOU LISTENING...i WANT A CUTE LIL PUPPY!!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Awakening
So, while I have been in my own sweet little home, enjoying the peaceful moments of my sweet new found life, I was awakened and shattered with the recent Terror Plot that hit our very own Mumbai. (not that I would be hurt lesser if it would be some other place…it would still be in INDIA and it would still be motherland)
The past week has brought out the real faces of the people who govern us…and of those who we believe will protect us…(No offences meant, I sincerely bow down to all those who laid their lives in this fight against terror). But what I have hated the most is the two faced people sitting at the top positions “waiting” for someone to die!!! Does it hurt to act before things really go out of control!
I don’t know if its anger that I feel or is it the misery that engulfs my mind…Paradoxical as it may sound I feel “we” the citizens are equally responsible for that happens to us…because it’s our government that handles our lives (?)…for them we are just dogs, or senseless people talking to streets…when will we realize the importance of our own life…? When will we stop playing the blame game..when will we be awakened…?!
The past week has brought out the real faces of the people who govern us…and of those who we believe will protect us…(No offences meant, I sincerely bow down to all those who laid their lives in this fight against terror). But what I have hated the most is the two faced people sitting at the top positions “waiting” for someone to die!!! Does it hurt to act before things really go out of control!
I don’t know if its anger that I feel or is it the misery that engulfs my mind…Paradoxical as it may sound I feel “we” the citizens are equally responsible for that happens to us…because it’s our government that handles our lives (?)…for them we are just dogs, or senseless people talking to streets…when will we realize the importance of our own life…? When will we stop playing the blame game..when will we be awakened…?!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Gettin back to blogging.
Alllllright....
So I am back to blogging...am not quite sure if I really am, because I am still in "dazed mode" and dont really feel like working !!!!:)
The vaccation post wedding has done some good (like I've lost a few kilos and also have quit a few bad habits i was living with).
There's so much that has happened over the last 50 odd days that it's getting difficult for me to recognize myself.
I dont know if it's the newer perspective that has helped me have a different (read newer) attitude towards life or is it my real self that has finally surfaced.
I am gonna get back with a few interesting things....but for now...this is just to say Heya!!! I am back :)
So I am back to blogging...am not quite sure if I really am, because I am still in "dazed mode" and dont really feel like working !!!!:)
The vaccation post wedding has done some good (like I've lost a few kilos and also have quit a few bad habits i was living with).
There's so much that has happened over the last 50 odd days that it's getting difficult for me to recognize myself.
I dont know if it's the newer perspective that has helped me have a different (read newer) attitude towards life or is it my real self that has finally surfaced.
I am gonna get back with a few interesting things....but for now...this is just to say Heya!!! I am back :)
Monday, September 22, 2008
An angel descends...!
... I have always believed in angels...and i have always known there's one protecting me and helping me all the time...I call him my guardian angel...and well he's my best friend too...!
I have seen this protection time again and again. I have seen my angel give me strength when I felt like giving up and also seen my angel support me, when everything was falling apart. I have also seen my angel cry with me...when there was nothing I could do! ( yes,angel's cry too; for they are no Gods,but His instruments).
We never realize,but there is one guardian angel around us...sometimes even more. It takes a tough and trying situation for us to know and realize that we are all surrounded by angels. They are there all the time...some times we see them...in action. Appearing from no where and picking you from dirt and saving you!! Helping you overcome situations,by just being there.
I saw my second angel today....and i guess i should say that i'm lucky...because not everyone sees angels.and i have 2 of them :)
I have seen this protection time again and again. I have seen my angel give me strength when I felt like giving up and also seen my angel support me, when everything was falling apart. I have also seen my angel cry with me...when there was nothing I could do! ( yes,angel's cry too; for they are no Gods,but His instruments).
We never realize,but there is one guardian angel around us...sometimes even more. It takes a tough and trying situation for us to know and realize that we are all surrounded by angels. They are there all the time...some times we see them...in action. Appearing from no where and picking you from dirt and saving you!! Helping you overcome situations,by just being there.
I saw my second angel today....and i guess i should say that i'm lucky...because not everyone sees angels.and i have 2 of them :)
Sunday, September 21, 2008
What am I on to......!!!!
So there’s been this topsy turvy …one hell of a time roller coaster ride for me for over couple of weeks and guess what! It doesn’t seem to end. The moment I feel the ride has come to an end and that I can breathe easy, the engines set off again taking wildest detours and get me off guard so much so that I am only a few steps away from being thrown off.
And when it does get over, and I feel that all is going to be fine, and I can cross over to the other side and get myself out of the tricky situation, I realize, the only way that I can get on to the other side, is take another roller coaster….(beat that).
Of course, I once upon a time felt that life should not be a routine and always wanted to see some adventure that give a sense and taste of different things in life, albeit I never expected that one day I would be dealing with one thing after the other (at times there’s more happening around than I can actually handle). I long for some time to relax my daunted nerves and cooling off my head which has a tendency of blowing up at split second frequencies.
Its nightmarish while I am awake, and sleep is increasingly becoming a luxury.
I wait, I pray, I hope for things to fall in place…
And when it does get over, and I feel that all is going to be fine, and I can cross over to the other side and get myself out of the tricky situation, I realize, the only way that I can get on to the other side, is take another roller coaster….(beat that).
Of course, I once upon a time felt that life should not be a routine and always wanted to see some adventure that give a sense and taste of different things in life, albeit I never expected that one day I would be dealing with one thing after the other (at times there’s more happening around than I can actually handle). I long for some time to relax my daunted nerves and cooling off my head which has a tendency of blowing up at split second frequencies.
Its nightmarish while I am awake, and sleep is increasingly becoming a luxury.
I wait, I pray, I hope for things to fall in place…
Thursday, September 18, 2008
A thought of life....
Life…
It is full of surprises. It takes turns in weird ways and takes you through something that you have least expected.
Sometimes, you feel that everything around you is just so right, only to realize that you are just a few steps away from an approaching disaster, that may change the direction of your life. Sometimes you are sleeping peacefully dreaming about the most beautiful things in your life, a sudden tremor that appears from nowhere; shakes you up pulling off the ground beneath your feet and get you down …to reality. At times you feel you are listening to the most soothing music and then suddenly there’s an eardrum splitting, nerve cracking sound that violates your very reason of being alive.
And there are other times when you think everything is so improbably improper. All you see is just a mist of darkness around, no sign of life, and light. A numbing cold chill…of unexpected fears that engulf your mind. And out of nowhere, you see a speck of light, a sign of life, a warm breeze that comes over swiftly and you the comfort and warmth, like being in the protective lap of your mother.
Strangely enough, there are some good warm surprises as there are some reckless , ruthless surprises that await us every moment. To see beyond them and to live to accept and accustom to them is an art. Most of us do not even know of it or attempt to learn about it until we are at the verge of saying our final goodbyes from this land of materialistic fantasies, fallacies.
Inspite of this, we live, we learn, we ignore, we grieve, we hope. Sometimes with closed eyes we see the real beauty of life…and sometimes nothing at all even with eyes wide open.
It is full of surprises. It takes turns in weird ways and takes you through something that you have least expected.
Sometimes, you feel that everything around you is just so right, only to realize that you are just a few steps away from an approaching disaster, that may change the direction of your life. Sometimes you are sleeping peacefully dreaming about the most beautiful things in your life, a sudden tremor that appears from nowhere; shakes you up pulling off the ground beneath your feet and get you down …to reality. At times you feel you are listening to the most soothing music and then suddenly there’s an eardrum splitting, nerve cracking sound that violates your very reason of being alive.
And there are other times when you think everything is so improbably improper. All you see is just a mist of darkness around, no sign of life, and light. A numbing cold chill…of unexpected fears that engulf your mind. And out of nowhere, you see a speck of light, a sign of life, a warm breeze that comes over swiftly and you the comfort and warmth, like being in the protective lap of your mother.
Strangely enough, there are some good warm surprises as there are some reckless , ruthless surprises that await us every moment. To see beyond them and to live to accept and accustom to them is an art. Most of us do not even know of it or attempt to learn about it until we are at the verge of saying our final goodbyes from this land of materialistic fantasies, fallacies.
Inspite of this, we live, we learn, we ignore, we grieve, we hope. Sometimes with closed eyes we see the real beauty of life…and sometimes nothing at all even with eyes wide open.
Monday, September 15, 2008
how very stupid!!!
All I keep thinking is…how stupid! Everything that I think has to end with these words.. “how very stupid”. Nothing really, but since my new found hobby is self analysis and introspection…all I get at the end of it is “how very stupid of me”
At times when people talk to me about it I really get infuriated…well that’s because sometimes our vision is clouded (after all, human nature). But then when I think about it later, it seems everything makes sense and then again I tell myself…..how very stupid of me!
If one has to find the biggest stupid on earth…who can whine and cry and then laugh out shamelessly at the same time…the search ends here….I think I am one of those few prototypes God accidently created (and maybe he too regrets now). I perhaps can wear the infamous crown for being one the biggest stupid on earth!
Well after reading this if you feel the same….I wouldn’t be surprised!!! :D
At times when people talk to me about it I really get infuriated…well that’s because sometimes our vision is clouded (after all, human nature). But then when I think about it later, it seems everything makes sense and then again I tell myself…..how very stupid of me!
If one has to find the biggest stupid on earth…who can whine and cry and then laugh out shamelessly at the same time…the search ends here….I think I am one of those few prototypes God accidently created (and maybe he too regrets now). I perhaps can wear the infamous crown for being one the biggest stupid on earth!
Well after reading this if you feel the same….I wouldn’t be surprised!!! :D
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
A.S.U.R
I have been trying to make myself understand my own behavior… (is’nt that good for a change). And while I was reading some of my own older posts, I realized that I have a sickeningly depressive drone…with a few bubbles of joy that come and pop up the moment they surface.
I think I suffer from ASUR (Acquired Stress for Unknown Reasons). Well well…these are a few symptoms of….my newly discovered state of mind (no Psychiatrist told me about it!) Off late, I think I’ve become tooooooooo sloppy, grouchy and in a way indifferent.(No, no, this is no case of lower self esteem, because if it was…I perhaps wouldn’t be writing praises for myself :P .
My mood swings have gone way beyond my control…and I don’t know (even while I write for this post) if I am depressed, sad, worried, emotionless, cold or happy (confusing isn’t it!). But on the other hand I am willfully glee, jumpy and excited at all the times….(now this is even more confusing!). I don’t know the reasons…or may be , I know and perhaps I do not want to “accept” them…hehehe.
Damn! Something is missing………
I think I suffer from ASUR (Acquired Stress for Unknown Reasons). Well well…these are a few symptoms of….my newly discovered state of mind (no Psychiatrist told me about it!) Off late, I think I’ve become tooooooooo sloppy, grouchy and in a way indifferent.(No, no, this is no case of lower self esteem, because if it was…I perhaps wouldn’t be writing praises for myself :P .
My mood swings have gone way beyond my control…and I don’t know (even while I write for this post) if I am depressed, sad, worried, emotionless, cold or happy (confusing isn’t it!). But on the other hand I am willfully glee, jumpy and excited at all the times….(now this is even more confusing!). I don’t know the reasons…or may be , I know and perhaps I do not want to “accept” them…hehehe.
Damn! Something is missing………
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
here's one to pune rains!!!! (and everything else)
So the rain has caused ample havoc in the city…well I think it is wrong to say that the rain caused a havoc, it is actually the infrastructure that gets immensely messed up when it rains (a tad heavier than normal)
I have in my life in Pune never seen rains so heavy (well in my life in Pune I have never seen such chaos either)
All I am seeing for over last 5 days is a heavy rain….leading to water logging thanks to ill planned roads and no contingency planning! A disaster when everyone leaves homes at the same time…..what I saw in terms of traffic says that! Jams that could make you feel miserable and that you cannot move a step ahead or back. Once you are stuck …then its like a victory when you make thru a few yards in an hour!
It looks so strange, the city looks like its been taken over by extended mass hysteria! (not that it normally does’nt look so, but considering the past few days it looks so! Only a degree higher)
Strange…inspite of the roads that sport potholes shamelessly, traffic that sucks! And all the irrational “human error” driven traffic jams…I am still in absolute love with this city!
I have in my life in Pune never seen rains so heavy (well in my life in Pune I have never seen such chaos either)
All I am seeing for over last 5 days is a heavy rain….leading to water logging thanks to ill planned roads and no contingency planning! A disaster when everyone leaves homes at the same time…..what I saw in terms of traffic says that! Jams that could make you feel miserable and that you cannot move a step ahead or back. Once you are stuck …then its like a victory when you make thru a few yards in an hour!
It looks so strange, the city looks like its been taken over by extended mass hysteria! (not that it normally does’nt look so, but considering the past few days it looks so! Only a degree higher)
Strange…inspite of the roads that sport potholes shamelessly, traffic that sucks! And all the irrational “human error” driven traffic jams…I am still in absolute love with this city!
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
I won on this one!
We had a rangoli competition in office today! (marking the begining of Ganesh festival that starts tommorow).
Well the pic does'nt look too good....it started raining cats and dogs by the time we finished it and the terrace roof could'nt do much!!
(my team mate helped me winning on this one!!! Thanks pal!)
Monday, September 1, 2008
Cute puppy
I got to meet this sweet lil angel there at Maval Srushti....cute puppy (it was so tiny!!!!)
Is'nt he cuteeeeee..........!
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