I am back....(I guess)

My oh My!!
I just saw the date of the last post I made on the blog! Man…I can’t believe I have kept “away” from blogging since almost 10 days!!! Weird…
Well..and obvious reasoning..I have been busy…with what…hell…I don’t know! Well actually more than the business…a weird lethargy has taken over me :( I kinda am feeling sick and tired and virtually in absolutely no mood to do anything …everything is looking just so … unreasonably boring.
Lately, I haven’t been putting any effort in anything…nothing absolutely whatsoever. I have’nt done any paintings ….(in fact I have’nt even touched the one I start about 2 weeks ago)
….I just don’t feel like doing anything…
Eowwww…It’s just getting so damn lousy!!! grrrrrrr

eeeeeeeeeeeks...!

I am dirt damned and frustrated today. Sometimes I feel there’s a dearth of fools around. Of people who really don’t know what they are doing and what they are doing. To top it up, most do not even know a valid reason of why they are doing so. And when they do something, they don’t have the courage to stand and answer for themselves.
For those who speak their heart out and do not hesitate voicing their opinions…Kudos…to them! But hell they are the ones who often are considered as a threat… and out casted.
We all make mistakes and only a few learn from them (some morons learn and forget!) It’s funny sometimes when confronted, some speak things that clearly indicates their inability to deal with what faces them, all they precisely speak about is covering up their own naked dirty a*** (sorry for the foul language); but I speak my heart out and I don’t fear being labeled as a trouble maker (yes some people think of me that way).
But…that’s an everyday story!!!

Catching up

Off-late my head has been bouncing like a crazyball. Hitting one thing to the other...and boy! It ends up aching big time.

Work's been snail speeding and home front a little feiry.

Nothing seemed to be going as planned : (
only good thing...the rains are back with an awesome bang! Weather's been pleasant too....

but something missing....

my mind... Yeah i guess!

Kulfi...fiestaaa!!!!

It’s almost time to leave from office (yet another hour to go though) and I was hungry and we don’t have an in-house cafeteria yet so usually we have to call for snacks from outside. This time though we planned to go out at a nearby bhel-puri joint and eat something.
There’s this excellent bhel puri joint nearby and eat nice ragda…yummy umm. Its awesome to eat chaat in the rains. And most of us have tried chaats in the rains… but has anyone ever tried having kulfi ??! hehehe I did…just now. The stall that I went to eat chaat at, has some special Kulfi’s too on the menu!
It’s been a childhood favorite and I still remember having kulfi’s from the kulfiwala who used to come outside our school when the school got over. And given a chance who wouldn’t like to have a taste of it??! Neither could I resist the urge to eat kulfi when I got to know that Kulfi’s are available here . So I quickly gobbled down the Ragda and then got kulfi. Now since I was out during office hours, it is not advisable that I spend a lot of time outside office during office hours, so instead of finishing the Kulfi at the joint, I decided to eat it, walking back to office.
I am sure it must have been looking really funny...for most people would want to drink nice hot chai in such a weather. It’s was drizzling and I was eating the kulfi……wow!!! What an amazing feeling:D. The temperature has been really low for the past few days and that helped keeping the kulfi from melting down. :D woooooooooohooo!
Now that was a refreshing break!!!
[for those who don’t know what Kulfi mean: it is our own Indian Ice-cream, made out of milk, cream, some dry fruits. Its’ molded in long conical moulds and set on a reasonable thick cut bamboo stick or softwood stick]

Blabbering out...

Its past midnight...and i am kinda slightly drowsy. I have been trying to get some good sleep since an hour,but my eyes refuse to comply to the reflex messages my brain is sending...
Everything around is quiet...or so it seems. I can hear the rain outside amidst some muffled low music (aerosmith...i dont want to miss you)...a slight humming sound caused by the fan...and an occassional ticking of the clock....hehe...funny that i am able to notice the sound of a perceived silence.
I wonder if i was so detail oriented even at work i would perhaps take over the top boss's place soon. (devil laughter)
Yawn...yawn....my mindless blabbering seems to be working (yawn) ...time to hit the sack !

Search : self (?)

Sometimes....nah! Not sometimes infact all the time I wonder that 'why on the earth do i get myself into situation that i cannot handle?'
Either there's a problem with me or with my perception of things,situations and people around me....I just dont seem to make sense to myself :(

I keep on thinking to myself...what's the next possible disaster I am taking myself towards?! Silly me....I just cannot keep my head working right.
Its not even that i am wreck....fortunately, i am blessed with all that one can possibly want to lead a happy life...
The only thing that i know for sure is...that i m still far from perfect and am far from what i really ever wanted to be.....long way to go....perhaps i would be better someday....

'Get focussed! TRANSFORM' .....?!! Well,yeah...may be.